Dissociative

Get me out. Getmeoutgetmeoutgetmeoutgetmeout

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE.

I don't want to be here anymore, I want to go go go gogogogo GO

GOD DAMNIT. go.
get me gone.

I want away from this place. I want away from these thoughts and feelings and associations that are swirling around me like a god damn whirlpool. I will not be dragged under.

But I'm not handling them the same, they've become unwieldy as of late, and that perturbs me.
I've done so well relieving them over the past 6 months that I will sincerely do ANYTHING to keep myself from slipping back.
I don't know WHY I'm feeling this so intensely all of sudden, but I really really REALLYREALLYREALLY don't want to feel it at all. Please?

No. I refuse to do this. You can't make me.



I'm tired of bearing the bullshit
I did it for so long
I would really enjoy NOT
I want OUT.

Now.
Please.

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The urge to disassociate is intense. And uncharacteristic of my general attitude.